i need a break badly... ar...

i feel so frustrated now.. i dont know if i should be saying this.. but i just feel so fed up at work.. mayb i just feel that some ppl there selfish.. to be frank, i feel that i am kinda suay that i ended up partnering with 2 of the seniority colleages in my team.. i hate it when both of them are always out to "fight" with each other.. i am always caught in the middle.. i wont say names.. but i just need to vent my anger..

A always w/o fail pang seh mi at the very last min.. i hated it when its saturdays with her.. cos i know she will always come out with a reason to leave mi alone... and i always have to stay back for ot bcos there will always be samples coming in on sat.. is like i am stil a newbie there n i have only been there for like half a year.. n she can throw mi there alone.. so damn frustrating.. i nearly cried once bcos of her behaviour..

then A and B will always try to pick on each other for god knows wat reasons.. its realli veri irritating.. and bcos i am teamed with A.. all the disapproval abt A from B would always go to mi.. sometimes i feel like i bo tai bo chi tio niam at.. i really veri sick n tired of all these..
argh... i really dont wish that one day i just flare up.. bcos things will be very ugly..

n so.. this week A is in morning shift with bec.. today she suddenly mc... i bet tml she wont come again.. n bec is left alone again.. i just dont understand how come some ppl are so self centered.. it realli wont kill u to just sacrifice ur abit of play time to ensure things go on smoothly at work..


n i totally hate it when my mom complains that why am i always the one being activated for ot.. i just chose to ignore her.. mayb she just dont understand the nature of my job..
but i expected him to be alittle more understanding.. it just turns out disappointing.. i dont like questions like "why is it u again" being thrown at mi.. i think i have really swallowed alot of his things.. his clubbing issues.. his drinking issues.. his money issues.. i just dont wanna kick a big fuss abt all these..
but stil i really cant believe that he didnt plan anything for my bday.. ya.. i know i always said that bday is not a big occasion to mi.. n i know he is really very broke.. but wat i want is just some simple n proper planning.. i dont need expensive dinner or entertainment n i dont mind just staying at home the whole day with him.. in the end.. everything abt tt day was decided by mi.. there wasnt even a small bit slice of cake..
n to think pq, my boss n my colleagues even bothered to get mi.. i know the jeans n jackets are expensive.. i dont want expensive gifts..

its so pitiful to think that i cried myself to slp tt day.. n he doesnt even know abt it.. thanks hur.. really thanks that i wasted my one day of leave to disappoint myself..

mayb i stil cant get over the things he had done.. n i told him directly before that he is just taking things for granted.. in fact, he treats other girls way better than mi.. except mayb he dont lavish expensive gifts on them.. n i stil feels the presence of his ex-gf lingering there.. this is sth that i really hate !!! i hate that he is always being Mr. Nice Guy to her n other girls when he doesnt care abt my feelings at all..

i really cant take it anymore...